INTERNET! It's Always Been Internet. It's still internet!

It's kind of a frustrating part of my life. I can't get an internet connection lately so I can't use my laptop, and my smart home system is in trouble. I want my internet back to normal just like the first time I use this internet provider. The due date for a payment is on the 10th of every month so I always do a due date of payment and never be late. Something happen to my router. Or maybe it's my DSL. Or something... whatttt??? I'm demented. I learn something about myself when I can't get online. I have an addiction. I think this addiction is still normal and maybe people do the same. When I can't log on, I start overbreathing, freaking out that I miss something... I don't even know what I miss, but I'm sure I miss SOMETHING! Something big and important and terribly exciting! My heart's beating a million times in a minute and I always twitch. I, the person who use to say that laptop is evil because I can'...